Since the classes started, I've been hell busy too. There's really a great difference how hard it is to be a college student than a high school.

So, this sembreak, Imma grab this opportunity of me not being busy to post an entry here in lj. Cause I can't even remember when was the last time I visited livejournal......like ages ago?

So, let's start.
Math was not really that big burden to me at all when I was in high school. But this semester, Math for me was like......I'm gonna break my skull, get my brain, roll it on the handouts given to us by our great professor(of course I'm being sarcastic), and put it back to my skull. I felt like I have no potential in computation at all! But it was not just me who experiences suffering from this subject. But almost my whole classmates. There was this night where in after our Zoology class, we stayed in Jollibee Asturias just to copy answers from each other for our effin' hard take home quiz. I think, half of our section was there and we stayed there 'til 8:30. So united huh? Jollibee is the new library. :p

Another hell subject for me is Chemistry lecture. Ma'am Nuguid is a great teacher. But every meetings we had, I don't listen. (Okay, let me do that again) I mean "WE" don't listen. And when I say "we" I'm referring to me and Kyung-Min, my seatmate. An unforgettable moment of us not listening was when we're busy playing this game I so-called "look-for-the-number-while-I-draw-stars", and because ma'am Nuguid's fave student is Kyung-Min, she will always call her and ask stuffs like the Korean term for this and that, and since we're so focused playing, we didn't know that ma'am was asking Kyung-Min, that Arlene has to yell at her and tell that ma'am is asking something. I was so nervous that time because I thought, she noticed that we're not listening to her. But my classmates told us that its not that obvious, we just look like we're busy jotting notes. :D

Zoology is a hard subject for me too. At first, its so hard for me to review it everytime we'll have a long quiz. But I get used to it when we have long quizzes weekly.

Lastly, the Introduction to Medical Technology. Last monthly, I didn't reach the passing grade. But I strived harder (oh yeah!)  and last prelims, I got a really high grade. I'm even higher to those who passed last monthly. Feels so good. :->

Yesterday, some of my classmates went to UST to ask our teachers if someone failed in their subject. So far, none failed in Zoology, Chemistry, Med Tech and English. But the much awaited is Math. But no one knows yet because our great professor haven't checked our papers yet. *no comment* So we can't feel relieved yet. Hmm...

Studying is really hard. Sleepless nights are normal to me now (well, its been really normal for me to not sleep, its just that I don't sleep now because of school works). And stress could be the possible cause of my pimples in my forehead, nose and chin. And it sucks. Its like when you google for an image of haggard, you'll see my face in the results. That's why I promised myself that I'm gonna sleep a lot this sembreak, but look, since the first day of sembreak, I never slept earlier than 2am. That means I broke my promise. So, should I hate myself for breaking it?

So that would be all for this entry. Gotta make lots of entries this sembreak. Operation ressurect my blog! :p

Its been a while since I had my last post.
So, many thing happened. June was a happy month though we were in the adjustment mode of being a college student, then suddenly my July gets complicated. The reasons could be my studies and the people around me.
Right now, I'm still damn head over heels in love with Roman...
He's the guy I'm referring to in my entry "What Should I Do?" and the guy who suddenly took my heart from Brown (from my entry Before High School Days End)
I really don't know what our status was last 2 months. But this affects me too much, especially on my studies. My first quizzes weren't good and I guess, I can considermyself as an emo, though in front of my friends, I've been always such a bubbly and a hyper person.
I tried to forget about him through my friends. Every dismissal, I immediately go to the hs benches to wait for my David and non-David friends, and this includes Eman and Haider......I think.
One of my favorite days of the week was Tuesday, because every Tuesday, something great happens, especially in Rosarito.

Me and Eman became good friends because last summer, we were textmates and I always run to him everytime me and Roman had a problem. I heard some rumors that he's kind of a playboy, but I ignored it because I was always thinking that he'll never like me.

Since June, I always see him in the benches, and this made us closer. I often hangout with him because of our common friends. There was this time when it was only me, Kate, Carezza and Haider who were in the Rosarito. Me and Eman were just teasing each other. I pinch him and even punch him. Then suddenly, they started teasing us... They even gave us tawagan, which is "bebe." Since that day, Tuesday was always fun. Few days later, me and Eman were texting each other like the whole day? Then he asked me if whats between me and Roman. and I replied like: I still like him, but I don't want to be stupid. Few more days later, he started to become quite sweet or demanding should I say? Like when my unlitext has expired already and I told him to just text me next time, he'll get mad easily and tell me that he registered in unlitext just for me. Things between us became different since that day, when they teased us.

As weeks pass by, we started to get busy with our different projects, quizzes and different school works. But there are still days were me and Eman will text each other. Then theres this one night while he's drinking with his friends. I asked him what's his problem, why is he drinking? Then he finally told me that I'm numb, and that he likes me. I was quite shocked and confused at the same time because I think it was just a month ago since he and her girlfriend(I don't know if she answered him) broke up.So I asked him about it, and he answered everything I asked. But I was still unconvinced. So to end up the conversation, he just told me that I don't understand him.
After that, we weren't texting that often anymore. But he'll sometimes text me to say that I look the same with the girl they're with.

Weeks passed. I sent a gm to the non-David people I know, then I received a reply from him which says: cnu ka?
dammit! That hurts so much! I replied to him: Cge Emmanuel... Ganyanan...
then he doesn't reply anymore.
I erased him from my contacts since he deleted me from his. Then, I received a gm which says: Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.
I was about to reply: sino ka?
but theres a name added at the end of the gm, and it was him. So I replied: akala ko ba nde mo ko kilala
but just like what I expected, he didn't reply to me aymore.

Last Friday, we drink in Tapsi 'til midnight. We drunk because of my problematic friend who likes Eman and another guy, who is my crush too. Before 12midnight, Eman came in Tapsi too and it made me feel awkward. I wasn't looking at him, and I guess he's not too. Its like we don't know each other.
I wasn't aware that my friend becomes so stupid when drunk(well, thats the effect of alcoholic drinks right? Hahaha!). I asked her if she likes the 2nd guy she told me that she's problematic with. But she doesn't get who I am referring to, so I whispered to her: si letter E, and she just said out loud: ahh... si Eman. The moment she said that, I really wanna freak out! Whoa! I tried to make palusot but everyone has just heard it. And its done. I can't do anything about it.

Then this week, during the celebration of my friend's birthday, I told them what happened between me and Eman. I told them about his messages and his GMs and my friends told me that he doesn't send GMs. And its like, whoa! So those were PMs, in a gm format?
After hearing that, it made me so confused and I kept thinking if he still likes me.
That day, one of my ex classmates asked us few days earlier to sing Maging Sino Ka Man for his girlfriend, but we weren't able to, because we were still at the Sicilian that time. Were already late. Then, when me and some of my David classmates walked in the benches, as we passed by the group of CB's friends, they suddenly sung the "mahal kita pagkat mahal kita, iniisip nila ay hindi mahalaga, mahal kita maging sino ka man..." part of Maging Sino Ka Man.
I don't know if its just their trip or what? But I didn't mind looking if Eman was there, though I really want to!

After that, Carezza had a 2nd round of blowout at Jollibee. I really wanna hangout with Carezza, Kate and Johanna. But when CB and the company came, and Eman sat beside me, I really felt awkward. And I was so out of place that time because theres no one I can talk to. So when Carezza and Johanna came back from ordering foods, I decided to just go home.

Right now, I really want to be friends with him again. Not just because of what I knew, but also because I want to be in good terms with everyone before my birthday comes.
I never really thought that we'll end up like this, and that I'll have this weird feelings for him.
Dammit! I think its too late for me to develop feelings for him because I think he already found someone else.
:-<
(I'm really weird. I don't know who weights heavier in my heart, Roman or Eman?)

just a quick post :D

I'm recently listening to the Brewrats show again and Monday is a trivia day!
So someone told them about this 4th state of matter called Plasma. Then someone added some info about it that theres a 5th state of matter. They were quite shocked that they didn't know about it. So I private messaged them that the 5th is called Boss-Einstein Condensate.
And few minutes later, I heard them mentioning my ym id, and told everyone about this 5th state of matter. We're actually 2 who told them about this stuff.
I just think its so amazing :D
Hee hee!
(just wanna share) 


btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DJ ANGEL RIVERO! :)

I'm currently listening to some radio station, RX 93.1
Since this summer vacation, I started to suffer from some sort of insomnia. My mom would force me to go to bed but I just can't sleep, so I just listen to the songs in my cellphone, but it doesn't make me feel sleepy, instead it just makes my cry because I remember of someone when listening to emo songs (most songs in my phone are emo). Then I thought of listening to the radio, they prolly be playing lively music even during late time. Hahahaha!  Then, I discovered this show called, The Show. They are playing club, pop and up-beat music, and the DJs are good, they are funny and knowledgeable! But this entry is not about them. Hahaha!
So, I'm currently listening to them, and they just played the song White Horse by Taylor Swift. I just heard the whole song lately, while watching MYX. And the song is really nice that I can relate to it. The music video is good too. It triggers the emo feeling in me...
I'm head over heels in love with a guy. He's not that cute or appealing, but he caught my attention by his good traits.
Last April, we're so okaaay! I love you's, I miss you's, sweet talks. I'm really madly in love with him. I felt his sincerity in his texts on me. There would also be these nights where we'll have serious conversations in text and he'll tell me that he never felt love before. That I'm his first love, and it really makes me feel so glad knowing about those things. I even saved it in my phone and computer so that if time comes that we're already boyfriend-girlfriend, I can have something to look again and remember how we started. But last May, problems just came. I saw some stuffs that really hurt me so much. I actually already knew before that he has many crushes, but I never thought that he'll like proclaim it to everybody, though he knows that I'll see it. I don't know how to deal with this kind of situations, so I just tried to keep myself away from him. But its so hard! We're both internet addicts, I can't go online in YM, Plurk and even Facebook. So maybe I had a little discipline with myself. But I can't resist his messages. I'll reply to it very late, short, and somewhat "cold" so that he'll feel that there's something wrong between us. I thought that being hurt will make my feelings for him a little less, that why I told him that we're just friends. But after telling that, he doesn't seem to be really depressed? Like it was just okay for him afterall. And things happened in the opposite way. I think my feelings just get more intense as days pass by not talking to him. Every night I'll cry, like from 3-6am, nonstop. yeah! imagine how red and swell my eyes are. But this is the truth. So I gave my whole courage and texted him if he still likes me. it may sound that Im too desperate for him, but I just don't want to throw away the chance that "what if he's just too dumb when he did that thing and maybe he could still make up for that and think much better before making an action". And he said yes, he still love me. That day was like one of the happiest moments of my life. I started to listen to different love songs like It Might Be You, Kiss Me and the like. But these past few days, he's fading like a ghost? He doesn't pm me, he don't respond to my plurks, and its always "this girl" --involved with our problem before-- who always answer his plurks. Yes, their like best friends, but my guy has a crush on her, so why wouldn't I be jealous?! Maybe for the girl, its nothing, but what would my guy be thinking? is he extremely happy because he's *kinikilig*. I don't know, maybe I lost my trust on him already thats why I get jealous easily. :(
Lately, I've done naughty things like they make my guy jealous and we'll see if how he'll react. But I think I've done too much already, yet he's still not reacting. Its been 4 days, if I'm not mistaken, since we talk.
Maybe he's happy with his friends and other crushes already?
I don't know. But it damn hurts. I'm tired of crying and making him notice me. Maybe I'm invisible to him right now? :|

~~Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on
And days drag on
Stupid girl,
I should have known~~

~~Baby I was naive,
Got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams
About you and me
Happy endings~~

~~Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone somewhere who might actually treat me well
Now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now~~

(I'm not really that good in English, so bear with me... hahaha! But I'm trying! :D
I also don't want to mention their names, so I just gave them a codename. :p)

Since the resumption of class from a Christmas-New Year vacation, I think that's also the day where 4th year students started to get busy and must be really serious in their studies and other school works, because in a few weeks, we'll all be deliberated on who's going to graduate and not. But despite of being busy, I still able to put some romance in my life. :D

Last February, when I got home, I suddenly remember that we need a table tennis paddle for our PE class tomorrow. But I don't know where to buy, so I send a group message to my classmates asking where I can buy a paddle. While waiting for their replies, I went to some bookstores hoping that they have, but sadly, they do not have. I got nowhere to go, so I went to the benches and I found some of my classmates and friends there. I ask them where I can buy, but they suggest me to just borrow. So I started asking the people I meet, like my friend, Green, who is with her friends from other sections, and one of them is also a friend of mine who offered me a paddle, but he said that he'll just text me if he finds it in his house. On my way to my apartment, I met Green again and she told me that her best friend, Brown, asked for my cellphone number, and I just answered okay. Few minutes later, i received a text from a new number, and it was Brown. And that's the start of us, becoming friends. Since that, we're texting even during class hours (bwahahaha!). That same week, 2 girls came by to our classroom to see me. And many are asking if I did something wrong because according to them, they are war freaks. So I started panicking and tell it to my friends including Green. And since Brown is her best friend, he also knew about it. And he said that he knows why they came......but they didn't tell me. That night, I really cant shake that thing out of my head, so I kinda pressured Brown on our conversation in YM, that I wont be able to sleep unless he tells me why. And he said that he has a crush on me. So, I'm kinda not ready to know about his feelings, cause I didn't expect that that's the reason, so I simply answered okay.

The next day, I can't talk to him normally, like the way we really used to talk. I can't even look at him. I feel a little awkward being with him, and he wants me not be. Green also asked me some stuffs like, how do I find him? is he cute or something blah blah. Well, he has some looks. He's quite dark, a little darker than me, a little taller than me, and has an average body. Green also told me to atleast give him some chance. And though I really don't have any plans being in a relationship, I let him try what he can do to show that he really likes me. And as days go by, I started to like him. The following week, he asked me to eat lunch with him in their classroom, and since I quite like him too already, I answered yes. And it really feels awkward! When we walk together to the canteen, I saw many people gazing at us! Damn! I thought I'm going to melt. It feels like there are going to be rumors spreading after that. When we're already at their classroom, he just realized that he doesn't have a spoon and fork. So I just gave him my fork, and we ate with only the other pair of utensil, because its going to take some time if he'll still get a pair of spoon and fork in the canteen. It still feels awkward in their classroom even though there are only few people in there. The atmosphere is like so heavy and I still feel the eyes of the people gazing at us. And the fact that I NEVER ate lunch with an admirer alone! This is my first time! Hahahaha! (I suddenly remember my classmate who asked me to go out with him. I asked him who's going to be with us, and he said that its just the two of us. The moment he said that, I felt a little shiver in my body. Hahaha! though I had a crush on him, I politely declined......like alibis that I'm not comfortable going out with a guy. Though I really go out with guy, but a friend! and besides, our classmates are teasing us, so its really going to be an issue if anyone sees us.) - -moving on- -  That day, after the dismissal we able to talk for a while in the benches. I told my points of view, and also my feelings toward him. So, its like MU already... Hahahaha! After that, he walked with me 'till we reach my apartment.

Next day is February 13, and it was Friday. Valentine's day was on Saturday, thats why the students just gave their presents to their loved ones that day. But he was absent, because he was sick. So I'm kinda upset about that. But I still received a chocolate from him. A classmate of him bought it before going to school. Though he still made an effort of asking someone to buy chocolates for me, I still want him to be one to buy it. But Green told me that after our CAT, he's going to go to school to see us, and that made me a little bit happy. We waited a little in the benches, then he came. We talked for just a while because my parents are already waiting for me.

February 14, me, my mom and my dad went out because the next day, my dad will board already. So he wants us to have some bonding time before leaving. That's why me and Brown didn't able to go out. But the following Monday, he gave me another present. A stuff toy they bought in Comic Alley, Yagami Light! Yeah! One of the characters of my favorite anime, Death Note. And I really liked it......though Light is frowning. (I just thought that if guys are going to give presents to ladies, it should be cute. Though Light is cute, I just dont feel its frowning face. Anyway, the value of the stuff toy still makes me smile. Hahahaha!)

We we're so okay the following days, but suddenly, I made some realizations. Then suddenly, my feelings just started to fade. I don't know why, but maybe because of some of his attitudes that I saw lately. He slowly became demanding like, if he wants eat with me, he'll force me to eat with him. He also me wants to be with him all the time, but I just cant. SInce late February, I want to give more time with my section, with my friends, because in just a few weeks we're going to graduate already and some of us are going to study in a different university and even in other country. So I felt a little smother with that. Or I just fell in love with another guy who's much kinder, more reliable and  more caring than him..? I really don't know why my feeling toward Brown suddenly changed. Is it because of his actions? Or I'm the problem?

(this entry is too long already. To know what happened between me and Brown......wait for my next entry! Hahahaha!
and I'm going to post it on....................the day I have lots of energy to type here in livejournal how we ended... :p)

Thank you very much for reading this! I hope I didn't waste your time! :D

di ko alam paano sisimulan ang entry na 'to...
kahit ang nangyayari sa katawan ko, di ko rin maintindihan... nanginginig na mga kamay at naluluhang mata...

kagagaling ko lang ng CAT camping, at dapat ay nagpapahinga ako, pero sadyang di ako makatulog dahil sa nangyari kanina...

Last day ng camping namin kanina, at pwede na magsama ang boys at girls. Wala si Rica, kaya naman ang mga kasama ko ay sina Kevin, Banky at Jorel. Nung una ay hindi nila alam kung sino si Koala, maya-maya pa ay bigla kong tinawag si Jorel ay sinabi kong nakita ko si Koala at dahil malakas naman sila Kevs at Banky sa'kin, ay hinayaan ko na ring malaman nila. Nasabi ko sa kanila na pag si Kevin kasi ang nangungulit sa'kin, gusto ko laging ipaalam, natawa siya at sinabing "best friend?". Maya-maya pa ay dumating ang mga St. David boys at nakisali sa usapan. Nalaman na rin nila kung sino si Koala at talagang ayaw nila ako na magkagusto sa kanya, mag Tomas na lang daw ako. Nang makita nila si Koala na naglalakad ay tinawag nila ito, hindi ko alam na palapit pala talaga siya. Pinakilala nila ako sa kanya, at syempre, hindi ko siya tinignan masyado at ang tangi kong nasabi ay "ka-company ko 'yan". Pagkatapos kong magsalita ay sinimulan na nila ang pang-aasar. Sinabi nila na marami daw nagsasabi na mukha siyang Koala, na may nagkakagusto sa kanya, at may gusto sa kanya si "Payuyo". Oo, sinabi nilang Payuyo. Napapalo na lang ako kay CB nang sinabi nila 'yon. nagbunot lang ako ng mga damo nang sabihin nila 'yon, nang bigla niyang sinabi "Payuyo?! haha! Bantot..." ...at bigla akong natigil... Napansin siguro ako ng ibang boys at kinulit nila ako ng "wasak na wasak!". Sinabi rin nila na isumbong ko raw ang sinabi ni Koala sa kaibigan ko (para kunwareng di ako si Payuyo). Maya-maya pa ay natahimik ako at nagsimulang magluha ng mga mata ko. Napansin na ni Jorelle ang pagkatahimik ko, kaya naman inaya niya ko na samahan ko siya magtapon, pero tumulo na nang dire-diretso ang luha ko, kaya tumakbo ako sa tent nila Kate. Nagulat sila nang makita akong umiiyak. Kinuwento ko ang pangyayari at sinabing hindi sila Kevin ang dahilan ng pag-iyak ko, kundi ang sinabi ni Koala.

Pagkabalik ko sa kanila, tinanong nila kung nagalit daw ba ko, pero syempre sobrang deny ako na hindi at ok lang ako. Pero hindi sila naniwala dahil sabi ni CB, sila nga daw nabanas eh...

Hindi ko talaga alam bakit ako naiyak kanina... Sa pagkaka alam ko ay "crush" ko lang siya, pero bakit sobrang sakit?! Kung noon, sabik ako sa CAT at gustong-gusto siyang makita, ngayon, parang ayaw ko na muna mag CAT. Ayaw ko siyang makita, kahit marinig ang boses niya, ayaw ko na.
Hanggang ngayon di pa tapos ang pag-iyak ko... Masakit lang talaga...

...
nang mabasa ko muli ang huli kong entry dito, wala akong nagawa kung hindi tumawa...
ang weird ko ka talaga nung time na 'yun...
di ko alam kung bakit ko nilagay 'yun dito...
isa lang masasabi ko, kung ano man ang sinasaad ng entry kong 'yun, kalimutan niyo na dahil wala naman siyang kwenta...

This was what happened to me last September 17, 2008
(I did this very quick, so sorry for the mistakes...)

Just like what I wished, there would be no classes from Thursday to Friday, but my thoughts that it would be a long vacation was absolutely wrong.
This morning, we went to the library to have a research on our CSR, then one of my classmates asked my other classmate if the guy in the library is “Roven” (not sure with the name) or “Brien”. Then when we we’re near the guy they we’re asking if its who is who, I recognized that it was Brien (I knew his face with the help of friendster) but my classmates called him “Roven” so I realized that they were twins! Jorelle and my other friends laughed at me cause it showed in my face how amazed I am at that moment! Then I asked them how they able to recognize who and who, and they said they just base on the size of the jaw. Brien has bigger jaw than the other one, and their answer made me laugh.
During our first period in computer, we did another animation in flash, I transferred to another computer, in front of ma’am Tungpalan so I would catch up with the steps, but hopefully…I didn’t. I don’t know the terms ma’am is telling! Like snap, I don’t know what that means, so how could I do it? I tried to ask my classmates near me but they’re so busy doing theirs too. Then on our second period, I don’t know what to react. We had to do the storyboard we draw…on the flash! Drawing in flash is such a misery, what more if were going to draw and animate 6 scenes?! I wanted to collapse that time.
I was the one to report in Physics since Abi didn’t able to make hers. I’m not nervous in speaking in front of many people, what Im worrying are the questions that my classmates will ask. What if I didn’t able to answer them?! *rawr* And physics is getting harder and harder. Each day, it seems that the solution is getting more complicated. I think I really need a tutor.
Then during our lunchtime when I went out of our classroom to check someone in the library, I heard someone “sumisitsit”, but I just ignored them since I don’t know who they are. But they continued making “sitsit” and I noticed that they were walking towards me. Then I recognized that it was Aga. I got so nervous, I don’t know what to say, I get tongue tied everytime I see him, even when were still schoolmates. So we talked for a while and I apologized for ignoring him cause I didn’t recognized him cause I don’t wear my glasses. He making “kulit” to me already, he’s even playing with my ID. I never thought he would do that. Were not close before, so I thought he’ll just make a simple “hi”. After our conversation, I went immediately into our classroom and screamed! I don’t know why I did that, maybe the feelings came back?! Hahahaha!
The contest for cheering started at 1pm, I think..? And the moment sir Jay came, David begged to him to let us watch the contest, but sir did not. Then I told sir that it would be my first and last year in USTHS, then he said that he’ll let me watch, but only me. Then later, he started teasing me that he’ll let me to have someone accompany me…Paulo. Whoa! Are we really that intriguing? Everytime our teacher will call Paulo, Kevin or my other classmates will call me. Yeah, yeah..! Maybe because I’m a transferee that’s why they always “bully” (actually, I don’t think its bullying) me. They always thought that I get “kilig” whenever I laugh when they tease me to Paulo, but that truth is..NO! Ok, I had a crush on him before… or we may also call it infatuation, intense but short-lived…but not anymore. I just realized that he’ll be a better friend than a “crush”. Anyway, I’m not “pikon”, so I just ride on to their teasings. Ok, back to what had happened to me a while ago, 5 minutes before Math time ends, sir let me watch the competition alone. I didn’t enjoy it, I’m just a short person, I can only see heads, and I didn’t able to watch the sections I want to see…Catherine and Cornelius, which I heard from Meme was good.
So since there’ll be no classes from Thursday to Friday, then the projects and homeworks in English will be done. I am so excited about the journal! I love writing on a diary, but since my mother always read my entries, no more privacy, I stopped my interest on it. My only successful diary was here in my laptop, because my mom don’t know how to use it.
I didn’t attend the HRO because me and my mom are going to a wedding(my cousin’s wedding, it was also like a reunion since they are working abroad and very seldom they are here in the Philippines). I wore an orange pants..yes, an orange pants, a white shirt and 2 ½ inched heel. Well, the orange pants was just fine with me, whats awkward were the heels! The sandals I wore were the one I used in my prom, but I don’t know what happened? I can’t walk normally with it. Its like I’m rubbing my feet to the ground. Anyway, I able to reach the venue alive…my feet hurts.
The reception was sooo nice. The foods were great too! Some of my cousins were there too. They look so pretty in formal wear! I able to hug my “favorite?” cousin and godmother too! She barely recognized me, according to her, my skin were lighter and I look better! Ahahaha! That could be the reason why the bride, ate Chel didn’t hug me, she might not recognized me too. There was of co¬urse “the garter game”, but they did it in a different way. The bouquet will be passed to the next until the song stops. While for the boys, they did it in a” limbo rock?” way (is that the right spelling?) After the games, we had picture taking. I enjoyed that night. It was great!
Unplanned, we sleep in my grandma’s house. There, I able to sleep well. Air conditioned room, there was a tv on the room where I slept, and a wide enough bed to roll ( I roll when I sleep, but I can’t do that in my bed in my apartment, thinking and comparing my room in Manila here in my room in Baliuag depresses me. )

Why do people often fall for the wrong person?!?
$#!%!
Kahit na alam nating masasaktan lang tayo sa kanila at malaking wala lang tayo, mas pinipili pa rin nating masaktan...

Ako...willing naman ako i-sacrifice 'yung time ko para sa'yo eh...kung hindi mo pa rin napapansin 'yon...manhid ka!

2 araw mo na kong napapaiyak! Nung Friday (08-22-08) ng gabi, simula nung nareceive ko 'yung masakit mong reply, umiiyak na ko, hanggang sa paghiga ko sa kama, umiiyak pa rin ako nang palihim para hindi mapansin ni mama... Ni hindi nga ako natulog dahil buong gabi ikaw ang iniisip ko! Basang unan dahil sa luha, mugtong mata, sakit ng ulo...'yan ang dinudulot mo sa'kin nitong mga nakaraang araw! Tae! Sabi nga ni Marvin, ano daw ba pumasok sa kokote ko at iniiyakan kita?!? Dapat talaga di ako nagpadala sa pagiging mabait mo...

whoa! ayoko na! Hindi na muna ako mag YM para tuluyan na talaga kitang maiwasan!

Katatapos ko lang mag-aral sa Val Ed namin...
Ang ugali ko kasi sa pag-aaral ay may kasabay na pakikinig ng musika...sa ngayon ay hindi Paramore o Dashboard ang pinakinggan kong playlist... Di ko alam kung bakit 'yung Halo-halo ang naisip ko, pero sa kalagitnaan ng pag-aaral at pagssound3p ko ay bigla namang nagplay ang mga kantang malulungkot...tulad na lang ng Bakit Part 2, Ikaw Pa Rin at Hiling...
Dahil dito, naalala ko tuloy ang first at current......mali-mali! 2nd love ko pala...
Pag naaalala ko 'yung mga sakit at sakripisyo ko sa mga minahal ko... Langya! Naging TANGA ako!
Ganun pala pag nagmahal ka...nabubulag ka...
Ngayong napagtanto ko ang mga kaTANGAhan ko, at ang mga sakit din na dinanas ng kuya ko sa mga nakalipas niyang pag-ibig...doon ko napa-isip na komplikado pala talaga ang magmahal...

Love isn't fair...
it never was...